Midnight thoughts

Well, its 1am in the morning..

I don't really know why am I always thinking this and that at this hour.. 

It's kind of torturing..  

I am not that kind of person who sleep at 10pm and wake up early in the morning..

I have tried to change my lifestyle but as a results.. FAILED. 

Maybe I have adapted to my current lifestyle ( do enjoy seriously dont ask me why ) 

BACK TO TOPIC 

Seriously,  have u ever thought about why we have to go to school and study ? 

If you did.. please continue to read this post..  

To be honest.. when I was young.. erm.. primary school.. I was so lazy to finish my homework.. I was so bad.. and seriously I made my family feel shame.. I don't wanna talk much about my past.. coz that was really embarrassing ..  

As I grew older and I realised.. why would I do that to myself and to my family?  somehow I wish Doraemon's Time machine does exist and I am able to correct myself.. regretful...  

Well.. as a teen, specifically form 3 .. 

We were facing PMR that time and I dont really remember who inspired me to be hardworking and be serious on my studies.. 

I do remember 2 months before PMR..  I burnt midnight oil always and I really did many model questions.. especially Geografi.. Geografi was one of the subjects I hated so much.. but months before PMR..  I found out that Geografi is actually a fun subject if you can understand.. I never get good grades for Geografi but I got an A in PMR.. If I am not mistaken.. i always get D for Geografi.. but before PMR.. I really covered all the syllabus and practiced ALOT..  finally.. I did 2 mistakes in PMR.. 

This has proven that if we want to do something.. there is no excuse.. if you are determined...  nothing could ever stop you..believe in yourself is the key 🔑 .. 

The main reason why I am posting this because of my cousins.. 

I have 2 cousin sisters.. one of them is form 3 this year and another one is form 5.. both of them are in *exam year* .. even though our government has abolished PMR but to me.. form 3 is still an important year.. coz after form 3 .. there's going to be a huge leap between form 4 and form 3 syllabus... if you are not hardworking enough.. you are going to regret after all..

Both of them actually studied peralihan aka removed? ( I am not sure about if I spelled it right.. well.. i dont care.. ) and I am pretty sure that they had lost interest in studies.. 

What can I do to help them?   

As I always said.. if you were given a chance.. why dont you try before you give up?  Nothing is impossible right?  

I have no idea why would them give up on themselves..  

I can't make sure that if they get good grades, their future are going to be bright and rich.. but as my dad told me.. good grades is the key for the door of success..  

With good grades.. we can apply scholarship.. study aboard without worrying financial problems and so on.. that's the benefits right?  even though I am not an intelligent girl but I know I have to study well.. I have my targets.. that's the purpose of my life perhaps?  I have tried to pursue them to join tuitions or come to my house so I can help them on studies ( even just a little bit ) .. but they told me to wait.. and wait.. i have been waiting for their reply since december.. (coz I am so free after SPM) .. and I am still waiting now.. 

If you were me.. what would you do?